Remembering Those You Love that are no longer with you....

Hi Dad,

In 2007 our whole world changed. Looking back now it seems like yesterday when I last saw you, but it wasn't yesterday. On May 30th of this year it will be a full three years since you passed.I miss you beyond words can express. I miss your laughter, your voice. Sometimes I stop and I get real quiet and I try to hear you. Trying to not forget your voice, how you sound, how you spoke to me and how you always made me laugh with your silly jokes.

Each year daddy I write you a letter. I write and tell you about all the changes in the world since you have passed, and I write and tell you about the changes in our family. The new additions, like Haleigh now a year old, and Adina now eight months old, and our latest addition, from Kevin and Amanda, little Connor. I write and I publish it in the local newspaper. I want your life to be not forgotten, and I know it won't be, but I just want you to know we all care and miss you so very much.

You were the glue in our family. You kept us all going when at times we didn't want to. You pulled us all together and you did it without words, but with sheer love and affection, and natural ability. You had that natural gift and we all felt it.

Mom tries to keep herself busy, but she misses you badly. But I am so proud of her Dad, and I know you would be proud too. She keeps going even though there are times when she doesn't feel like it.

But I think all the new great grand-babies have awakened a new spark in her eyes. She loves them so much, she only wishes, just as we all do that you were here with us to see them and love them. They are really adorable and loving and they brighten our day when we get to see them.

I spoke with a lady a while back that says she can see and hear those that have gone on. I asked her how you were doing. And even though I don't believe those kind of people, it was still funny how she described you and I hadn't mentioned anything about you. She said you were happy, that you missed us to, but that you were a busy body and out and about.

That sounds just like you. She said you were keeping busy and that you didn't sit still for very long and that you had lots of work to do and you were enjoying it.

I pray that is true Dad, because we want you to be happy. I couldn't bare knowing that you were sad.

Mom sends her kisses, we all send kisses Dad, and we think about you all the time.

I kiss your picture and I talk to it. I try to visit your grave-site when I go home to NC to see Mom and the rest of the family. I keep a close check on your flowers, it is time again to replace them and refresh them with pretty spring ones. I'll do that when I go home next trip.... Any particular color you want this time? Just let me know I will see what I can do.

I am still writing my screenplays Dad, still haven't sold one yet, but I will.

I did overcome Trichotillomania just as I promised you. I can wear my hair all the way down now. You would be so proud............

Well Charlie is heading home, he should be here soon, we love you Dad....

I'll write soon, Love your Baby Girl Wanda